September

Over the last few days, I've had this sense of fault.A dread like breathlessness clinging onto my heart and lungs.Like I've been wrong about something. Something huge.I've been crying. Crying while making tea, crying while watching t.v, crying at therapy.Tears have just flowed on the spot.Uncontrollable grief.Ya see something has shifted or is shifting and…

The Struggle Is Real.

Getting sober is one thing but staying sober is another. And staying sober during a pandemic is another Right now I'm finding it tough.I have had many urges to get wasted recently.I have cried myself to sleep with the pain of grief and letting go.I am healing and its hard and vulnerable.Part of me does…

Two Years Free!!

My sober 45 year old self! So today its two years now since I quit alcohol, cigarettes and marijuana too!When I read other people days,months and years I’m always so amazed and like WOW that’s a lot of days together. But when I see mine in my app I’m not so amazed and in awe!…

One Day At a Time.. Especially Now!!

Been an age since i last wrote here and felt inspired with everything going on right now. Well mainly with this pandemic. Every thing feels different,unsure, uncertain, unknown right? Right now im glad i have 14 months sobriety and mostly i feel strong in myself emotionally, mentally and physically. If i began to think about…

One day at a time..

The light is shining ...its now been 10 months or 304 days since i gave up alcohol,marijuana and nicotine.I make a conscious decision everyday that i wont drink or get high today. Some days its really difficult and i have to draw on all the things i know to be true.Which goes something like this:…