September

Over the last few days, I've had this sense of fault.A dread like breathlessness clinging onto my heart and lungs.Like I've been wrong about something. Something huge.I've been crying. Crying while making tea, crying while watching t.v, crying at therapy.Tears have just flowed on the spot.Uncontrollable grief.Ya see something has shifted or is shifting and…

Pride Month🥰🌈

Just noticed it's been one year and one month since I began writing this blog! And I've noticed not written anything here for two months! So a small offering of words and pictures😊Since inter-county travel restrictions have lifted have got to see some family and friends. It was so so wonderful especially since my Dad…

The Struggle Is Real.

Getting sober is one thing but staying sober is another. And staying sober during a pandemic is another Right now I'm finding it tough.I have had many urges to get wasted recently.I have cried myself to sleep with the pain of grief and letting go.I am healing and its hard and vulnerable.Part of me does…

650 Days Free!!!

The light coming in.... Today i feel more free and light then i ever have before. I feel like I am coming home to myself and that is not an easy thing for me to say without a part of me wanting to laugh at how ridiculous it sounds. That part is only protecting me…

11 months into it…!

My Favorite quote right now This quote is whats happening in my life right now. When i read this quote before i didn't really get it to be honest. But now i get it. I feel like to remain small and silent and quiet is the more painful option and its the option i have…

This Time Its Different!

Decided to start writing down my experiences of this sober journey..So in the past I have attempted to quit alcohol but always for other people and never for myself. On January 5th of this year i quit again with a great sense of "sick of feeling sick" On that day I also quit nicotine and…