Pride Month🥰🌈

Just noticed it's been one year and one month since I began writing this blog! And I've noticed not written anything here for two months! So a small offering of words and pictures😊Since inter-county travel restrictions have lifted have got to see some family and friends. It was so so wonderful especially since my Dad…

Coming Home

Just 16 days into my sobriety I reached out to a somatic therapist whose small flyer I saw at the place I worked at the time. It was on the notice board that I placed many posters on and took many down myself and well never noticed it before!!It amazes me how quickly I reached…

On Endings.2

I did seek and hope to find love in lockdown on a dating app!!I found someone in another country half the world away about to move here!I wanted to write about what I learned about myself throughout the 4 months.All I can write about is myself as per all my posts. My feelings are big…

800 Days!!!!

Today we celebrate our patron Saint of Ireland St.Patrick!However we are still under a level 5 lockdown so will be no actual parades, no drinking in pubs and so on.Not drinking in a pandemic is hard. So today is just another day for me. It is hard because as is the same for most people…

On Endings

Recently I’ve learned that we don’t get the justice we think we deserve or even imagine.  I was shocked recently to find out about the sudden death of someone who had a huge impact on my whole life. Huge impact meaning traumatic impact. My abuser. Over the past two years, I’ve been working hard on…

Two Years Free!!

My sober 45 year old self! So today its two years now since I quit alcohol, cigarettes and marijuana too!When I read other people days,months and years I’m always so amazed and like WOW that’s a lot of days together. But when I see mine in my app I’m not so amazed and in awe!…

BE KIND

Death by suicide leaves the people left behind asking a ton of questions.I'm writing this because a month ago a good friend took her own life. The shock of hearing the news was something I never felt before. It hit me in the chest like a punch to the heart.I wanted to fall to the…

Finding my light…

When I was in my twenties I did find a way to not drink for some time. I was introduced to AA by a friend who saw my drinking as a problem.I got involved with all aspects of its active service and so on. I loved the community aspect of it that it felt like…

650 Days Free!!!

The light coming in.... Today i feel more free and light then i ever have before. I feel like I am coming home to myself and that is not an easy thing for me to say without a part of me wanting to laugh at how ridiculous it sounds. That part is only protecting me…

11 months into it…!

My Favorite quote right now This quote is whats happening in my life right now. When i read this quote before i didn't really get it to be honest. But now i get it. I feel like to remain small and silent and quiet is the more painful option and its the option i have…